So, today I am going to share something positive....a goal that I have achieved.
Many months ago my Mum decided that for her 60th birthday she would like to go to The Ritz (London) for afternoon tea. At the time of booking I was a bit blase in thinking 'Oh my CFS will be better by then, I will be fine'.....wrong!
It hasn't just gone away and I am not fine however, after months of feeling concerned about how I would cope on this busy day....I did it.
Yes, I was worried, had a few panic attacks before the day, and barely slept the night before but I did it.
I managed it by walking slowly, sitting down frequently and getting an earlier train home that my mum and sister. But, it didn't matter. All three of us had an amazing time at The Ritz and great memories were made. It was nice to treat my mum to something special after all of the support she has given me since my diagnosis. I am so glad my illness didn't prevent me being there.
I am paying for it now...three days on and I am still feeling wiped out and in a bit of pain, but what I have learnt is that life isn't perfect and I should stop putting pressure on myself for everything to be perfect and run smoothly. Thats not reality and I should have such high expectations of myself. I can go with the flow and it will be ok, I will deal with it.
I will leave you with a couple of photos of me, mum and my sister on the day.
